FUCK

omg.
I've gained so much weight.
Ive been stuffing my face nonstop and havent purged nearly enough.
thisisbadthisisbadthisisbad.
FUCK.
ok, starting tomorrow
liquid fast.
only liquids.
NO FUCKING CHIPS OR COOKIES.
breakfast- coffee
lunch-coffee
dinner- coffee
I CAN DO THIS.

floating

Things have been insane lately.
For one thing, the guy that I'm "friends with benefits" with has fallen for me.
For another, I'm seeing this other guy. He gave me adderall the other day and it was the first time I had ever tried it.
It literally made me not think of food at all. It was amazing and I felt so energetic and great!
As for purging, I only did once this week and it was very bad. My fingers were covered in blood.
It really freaked me out and I dont want to do it anymore.
I'm currently about 131 lbs. I've been eating alot of cookies lately :p But today I'm starting to restrict a bit more.
I honestly can say that I am ok with the way my body looks right now. It wouldnt hurt to lose some of the pudginess on my face though :p
Thank you for following my blog, sorry I dont update very often but I appreciate everyones support :)